When I look off into the distance...

When I look off into the distance

I'm thinking of you...

I remind myself how sweet it was to hear you say "Hi Mom!"

I remind myself of your contagious laugh.

I remind myself of the time you and your sister were chasing each other round and round the house...

You two sounded like a heard of elephants.

The laughter and screaming is something I hope I never forget.

When I look off into the distance

I wonder if you're there, behind a cloud...

Can I catch a glimpse of your face?

When I look off into the distance

I think about those last moments of your life...

All alone.

I wonder if you thought of us

I wonder if you considered calling someone

I wonder what your final prayer on earth was

When I look off into the distance

I think about how happy you must be in Heaven

I think about that smile you would flash and get your way

I think about how big your family is now

When I look off into the distance

I cry...because I miss you.

When I look off into the distance

I hope and pray that you will always be by our side

Protecting and guiding us

When I look off into the distance

I want you to hear me say

I LOVE YOU SON.

~Mom