When I look off into the distance
I'm thinking of you...
I remind myself how sweet it was to hear you say "Hi Mom!"
I remind myself of your contagious laugh.
I remind myself of the time you and your sister were chasing each other round and round the house...
You two sounded like a heard of elephants.
The laughter and screaming is something I hope I never forget.
When I look off into the distance
I wonder if you're there, behind a cloud...
Can I catch a glimpse of your face?
When I look off into the distance
I think about those last moments of your life...
All alone.
I wonder if you thought of us
I wonder if you considered calling someone
I wonder what your final prayer on earth was
When I look off into the distance
I think about how happy you must be in Heaven
I think about that smile you would flash and get your way
I think about how big your family is now
When I look off into the distance
I cry...because I miss you.
When I look off into the distance
I hope and pray that you will always be by our side
Protecting and guiding us
When I look off into the distance
I want you to hear me say
I LOVE YOU SON.
~Mom
